depression · faith · fears · God · happy · health · me · moving on

Hello, Sunshine!

It’s been a while since I posted here.  I’ve been busy.  Doing what, you might ask (or I might ask myself)?  Um…..stuff.  Yeah.  That’s it.  Stuff.  So there.  Okay, so I don’t really know what I’ve been doing, I just know I’ve been busy.  Even though this week was spring break, I’m tired.  Really tired.  Some days, I feel like I’m on the verge of burning out.  Some days, I feel like I can’t take another step, another inane homework assignment, another crisis at work.  Some days I’m so tired I’m not sure I can make it through the day–even with the help of caffeine (too bad I can’t take that via IV).

And then I remember how blessed I am.  I am blessed.  I’ve made it out of the darkness of depression.  Some days are a little dimmer than others, but for the most part, the sun shines brightly in my life (and so does The Son).  My life may be super busy and overflowing with things I need to do, but I’m learning to take a step back, to downsize both my life and my expectations of myself.  Some days, it’s okay not to do homework and to just lay around on the couch and read or watch TV (not often, not if I want to keep up my grades, but sometimes).  That’s not an easy thing for me to do, but I’m learning to.  I am so blessed.

I’m trying to learn to take things slowly, like Darwin:

Darwin, my new Russian tortoise
Darwin, my new Russian tortoise

He’s pretty chill. He doesn’t let anything get him down or make him hurry.  I could learn some things from him.

I also put in a job application at the zoo.  I think I’m a long shot, because I have no experience, even though I have the basic requirement–a high school diploma–and I also have an A.S. and I’m working on my B.S. in Biology.  I would LOVE this job, working in the herpetology department (assuming I could get it.   And assuming I could still go to school).  At least I tried.  Even if The Diva might be a little upset with me….


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